Worst job to have

if there was one job i would not want to have i would not want to be the barber shop surgeon. I just cant deal with surgery, or cutting people or even animals for that matter. I would like to have the job of the stone breaker who would crack the limestone in half. The thrill of breaking large rocks is exhilarating :)!

Connor Diday's freshman year

during the coarse of his year connor had gone through times that could possibly change the coarse of his life. there were good time's and bad times. from meeting new freaks, to almost failing out of school. alot of things have gone through his mind this year about where life should be going. what he needs to change in his life, and there are allot of things that he has realized he has to change in order to survive.
perhaps the biggest struggle was just keeping on task and making it through school. as much as we wish it could be true, life doesn't give you a free pass to just do anything and have everything work out. especially if you arnt working on what you want to do in life. in most of the time for him, understanding is not the hard part. the thoughts and ideas come easy like a flow from the river. but following through and becoming your thoughts is the dam in the river of success for him.
although passion and fear can drive us to great lengths sometimes its better to have the will power to do something, then the motivation. Clint Eastwood once said "I've never met a genius. A genius to me is someone who does well at something he hates. Anybody can do well at something he loves -- it's just a question of finding the subject." The person who can go great lengths without motivation without passion. is the most successful in the end.
during the third quarter, grades went down hill the fear of flunking out of school was biting him right in the ass like an angry guard dog. when fear and demise should have motivated him to do better. it only made motivation weaken.
He can only hope that, while others might be saying "oh i wish i could relive freshman year.", that he wont have to be the one doing just that.
unfourtunatly his thoughts are many, mostly fear. fear of parents, fear of disgrace, fear of teachers, fear of failure, fear of fear. i fear that fear might take up a fair amount of time in his brain and one day, all hope is gone and motivation ceases to exist. these are his words and his alone no one else's. although he is the "wierd one, quite one, silly one, unmoitvated one, or maybe even a nuisence. to some people he is that. to most of them he is that. he doesnt blame them for thinking that. he himself beleives that this, well might be true. the wish to not be is great within him. but you are who you become. and for who you become you must live with and accept the good that comes with it.
when put into new places new enviroment, take the shape of it. be water my friend.